March 10 is fast approaching and it’s going to be our birthday soon. However, this year I’ll be the only one who will be celebrating my birthday so I know my birthday will not be the same again.
I’ll be celebrating it but, at the back of my mind, I’ll be thinking of you and I’m missing you. I know we haven’t been friends for too long but in the short amount of time we spent, we became so close. I felt so ease with you. We shared personal stories. Plus we made a lot of plans like spending at least two weeks in Japan which I was really excited about.
Truth be told, I couldn’t care less if our plans push through. What matters to me more is I get to have in-depth talks with you over milk tea, see you flashing your bright smile and bond with you through other various activities. Your friendship was such a gift and blessing for me.
Thus, if only I knew that our birthday celebration would be the last time I get to see you, I would have insisted on spending more time with you. Looking back, as you hugged me goodbye, for some reason, I felt unconvinced that our formal celebration of having a spa together was going to push through.
It came true as you didn’t show up on the agreed date and the following week. Of course, I became worried. You assured me through text that you’ll show up soon but your text responses to me became less and less frequent.
How I just wish that you didn’t hide your sickness. I could have spent time with you during your remaining days on earth. I’ll willingly be beside you at the hospital. But you were such an angel, you didn’t want everyone to be worried about you even including your parents that we only knew about your situation when your body was about to give up.
What is done is done. I just want you to thank you for your friendship and most especially your advice which was to give my ex a second chance just like you did with your boyfriend. It was tough for me but knowing that through your experience, you had no regrets, I followed suit.
More so when I heard of your demise. It is like an unexpected parting gift for me and a reminder that life is short. I don’t think I can thank you enough for making such an impact on my life. It also made me think that you entered my life for a reason and at the right time.
I honestly still wish you are here from time to time so we can celebrate together, share our problems, go on double dates, and go on trips. But it has already been a year, I will just have to accept that you truly have to leave.
You lived a good life and you gave your best to survive. I want you to know that you will never be forgotten especially on my birthday.
I’ll continue celebrating life for you as you look down from heaven.
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