It's been six months since you took yourself away from us. I can't even begin to describe my feelings. I guess I'm still overwhelmed. I wanted to say what's on mind…
I want to start first by saying thank you. Thank you for your kind heart. Thank you for your songs. Thank you for your lyrics. Thank you for your voice. Thank you for your talent. Thank you for "creating" Pearl Jam (my all-time favorite band). Thank you for your amazing concerts. Thank you for Temple of the dog. Thank you for giving me endless goosebumps when I listen to you. Thank you for being a human rights activist. Thank you for your music.
I still can't believe and don't want to believe that we won't get to see you and be in your presence anymore. There isn't a day that goes by where I don't think about you. Every concert felt as if you were a friend. Your voice still has the ability to run shivers down my spine and give me goosebumps all over.
Ever since you went away, I can't stop listening to you. It's the only thing I have to hold on to. All of a sudden, Temple of the dog has a changed meaning. It was something that you wrote for your friend Andy Wood, but now it can be related for yourself as well. If only you would have stopped for a second, on that damn night of the 18th of May, and listened to "Times of trouble", then maybe, just maybe this whole thing could have been avoided.
As I'm writing these words for you, tears are uncontrollably running down my cheeks. The amount of times I cried in the last 6 months because of your loss is indescribable. It's funny to see how you can mourn for someone you never really personally knew, but maybe that's your magic. Maybe your gift was to touch so many people from far away and make it feel so personal to each and every one of them.
I read all the tributes that people write to you and it makes me understand that I am not facing this alone. Many others have a hard time dealing with the void that you have left. Personally, I don't think I can ever come to terms with what you have done. I have a small bit of anger towards you. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO US???
I guess we'll never really know what went on in your mind in those final moments. I guess we'll just have to continue to fill the void that you left behind with your music, but I want you to know that no matter what- you have changed many lives and given lots of inspiration to us all. We love you and we'll always love you. I appreciate all that you have done and cherish your work forever. Time will not make it better, the void will always be there, and I will continue to try and fill that void with your music.
I will end this letter by telling you that I love you. Your music has been influencing me for more than 25 years and that is something that no one can take back. If you're listening up there, I want you to know that you are still very much loved and missed.
Take care of all of us from up there and.... Say hello 2 heaven...
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