“ I am blown away. I loved her intensely. I wish I could have taken her with me, to were I am now. I was not strong enough then. I can’t believe I found out this way. She was THE most beautiful. And incredibly intelligent. My life went a totally unexpected direction. I never stopped feeling like I left her behind I just was not strong enough. We were like two tornadoes. She was gasoline and I was the match I sometime miss our short lived total chaos. Never will I live so wild again. She is the most special in my heart. But the way for us to survive was to part. We were the most destructive but I would not let go of one single heartbreaking moment I ever spent with her. I have a son. He’s almost perfect. I raise him exactly as Sonya
and I promised we would raise a kid if only we were not hopelessly addicted to crack. I guess my son, Maverick’, can be my tribute to my Beautiful ex-wife, as a reminder of how it should have been done for both of us Joey, Cody. I pray with everything I have ever learned in this world. Guys, be strong men. Your mom was to me incredible please don’t ever mess with any drugs at all. I was a hopeless loser when I fell totally in love with your mom. No way in hell I could handle myself let alone her train wreck of a family. (Not The the ones in lake city, ) they were decent. Your mom put them
Through hell we both were a mess. I have so much regret. You mom was just so god dam unique. One of a kind. Only the be treated so Shabbily by that skank. Heart breaking. I was so utterly happy and proud to have married such a bad ass chick.
Dakota. I will love you in me heart forever. I told you I would. ”