People always think that the most painful thing in life is losing the one you value .the truth is, the most painful thing is losing yourself in process of valuing someone too much and forgetting that you are special too. Our self- confidant came from our believing on our self, and that will not coming from nothing, its need hard work from our parents and good knowledge of how to upbringing children.
In my case I was unfortunate having very hard heart parents that destroyed my personality ,myself- confidant and my soul. They formed me as they want, they dream for me and plan my future without considering my attitude. day after day , i don’t know who am I , myself ,my dream and my attitude all became theirs dream not mine .
Dad ,mam I'm so sorry ,I will not be able to continue this way , not any more , I lost everything when I wanted to do everything I could to make both of you happy , but look for me now, couldn't you see?, I became an empty person I didn’t know how am I ,feeling so sad, hopeless and not sure about anything , I always feel panic if I had any conflict with any one.
Some time I wished I was stronger than that , wishing I could be like this image in my eye, a stronger women that know how to get through life conflict , struggle for having what she want and deserve to be happy in the end. Everything will change now, I'm starting doing what make me feel save and happy, I'm building myself again , try to love myself, try to believe that I'm so special , try to know myself better and know what I want .
I have promised myself that I will not repeat the same mistake with my children. I will love them any how they are, I will let them know they are unique person , and they are so special, and I will teach them how to love themselves and love others .this point of view was came from believing that the light will came first from our heart and our soul and spread after that everywhere.
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